We decided to try again pretty soon after we lost Baby J at 11 weeks pregnant. Pregnancy after a loss can be very difficult and we just couldn't relax or let go. We decided to wait until our 20 wk scan before we got our hopes up at being able to keep this baby. Our 20 week scan provided us with information that would tip our world upside down in ways we couldn't even imagine.
I had thought if I really wanted to get married that I was going to have to be with someone who just didn’t get me, and really put aside the things I was hoping & praying for in a guy. I'm not talking about simple compromise, or trying to tick those 'boxes' , but genuinely not finding someone who I was passionately and madly in love with, that I couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life with.
Last week, Marvin and I stood outside the local crematorium waiting for the service to start. Due to COVID, only the two of us could attend. How do you journey through grief when people are self isolating & socially distancing, cut off from your usual network of support?
Have you ever thought about how a pebble is formed? What it goes through to get it's shape? Or where it has been? I found the process of this similar to how God shapes us. Can you relate to any of thes different types of pebbles mentioned or uses of pebbles?
It’s been a month since we lost our baby and I have realised a few things about grief and the effect it has had on us. If you have dealt with grief, pain or trauma then you may be able to relate. I don't claim to be an expert or even be able to articulate... Continue Reading →
Thursday was our ONE YEAR wedding anniversary and what a year its been, thrown together in this pandemic in a way we didn't expect but we have survived. This week we thought we would be sharing pregnancy news with you because our scan was due this week but unfortunately 2 wks ago, at 11 wks pregnant, we suffered a miscarriage.
As a runner, I find the uphill parts challenging! Can you relate? This can be a metaphor for life, those uphill struggles can be difficult! So how do we face them?
I am forever grateful for the blessings in my life and the way I can see God moving. But this does not mean that I don’t still have challenges, I do. Before I knew Jesus, I made a complete mess of my life through decisions I made or did not make, through the way I viewed myself, through the value I placed on myself or rather the lack of value. So as I walk into this New Year, I am grateful but more aware of my need for Jesus.
Some think I'm radical in my faith, but how can you not be passionate about the person that saved your life? How can you not give your all to the person who sacrificed their own life for yours? I will never be lukewarm, I will never be chilled out or laid back about Jesus & what he's done for me! Because I decided to follow him & I'm not turning back.