I’m a Christian, I never said I was perfect!

I know when I tell people I’m a Christian, that they jump to all kinds of conclusions. I have had people judge me based on my faith, often putting me under a microscope because I call myself a Christ follower. I know that some people think for some reason, that I think I am better than them because I have chosen to follow God. Some people even think that I think I am perfect, which is so far from the truth! It spurred me to put how this makes me feel into words, which are expressed here.

I’m a Christian.

I’m not perfect.

I’m a human being.

I’m a Christian because I’ve recognised my weakness, my failures, my flaws & the mess I’ve made of my life.

I’ve made mistakes, I still do.

I’ve got things wrong, I still do.

I’ve lost my temper, I still do.

I’ve said hurtful things, I still do.

I still have days where I regret things I’ve done or said.

I still have days where I wish my life had been different.

I still have days where I wish I had made better choices.

As hard as it is to say, I still have days where I think would the world be better off without me, where I wish my suicide attempts had been successful.

Being a Christian does not mean I think I’m perfect.

Being a Christian now seems to put me under more scrutiny.

Being a Christian seems to make people search for and point out my imperfections.

Being a Christian means I’ve lost friends.

Being a Christian means I have gained some deep meaningful friendships.

Being a Christian does not mean I think I am better than you.

I now have more days filled with hope and meaning.

I now have more days where I wake up, glad to be alive.

I now have more days where I am grateful for the journey God has taken me on.

I now have more days where I am thankful I was able to make better choices.

I’m a Christian because I need God.

I’m a Christian because when I was in charge of my life, I made a mess of it.

I’m a Christian because I am far from perfect.

I’m a Christian because I want a better life, I want to be a better person.

I’m a Christian because I need forgiveness, I need grace, I need mercy & I need love.

I’m a human being.

I’m not perfect.

I’m a Christian.

I’m a Christian, I never said I was perfect!

So, before you judge me from my title as a Christian, ask yourself what harm am I doing to you by having a faith?

I’m going to keep pressing on to be who God has created me to be, are you?

Love,

Amber

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2 thoughts on “I’m a Christian, I never said I was perfect!

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  1. Stand up stand out be yourself that’s all and take accountability. We’re blessed to have out spoken women as yourself speaking from the heart. Good job.

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