The final part of my birthday reflections blog series - My 30's. These have been different. I have spent the last 10 years becoming the person God created me to be. Living with hope, love and forgiveness. The forgiveness that I craved & needed, and for which I am truly grateful for. It is a life you can have too.
My 20's were probably my hardest season. I went through so much pain, much of which came from my own decisions. But it was also the season that led me into the new, into the light, into hope, into love.
As my birthday week progresses, I am reflecting on my teenage life. How hard it was being a teenage mum, and why I threw myself so hard into partying.
It's my birthday week, a time of reflection. Looking back over the last 40 plus years, I thought I would share a little bit of what those years looked like for me. Those years provided the foundation for much of what I have experienced, both good and bad. Here I share a little about the first 10 years.
We've lived with this dreaded thing hanging over our lives for so long now and for so many of us, life is beginning to resume some normality. And for us it is in some ways but in others, our life isn't nomral anyway. My son, Azariah, is still a vulnerable baby while he waits for... Continue Reading →
Are you planning a holiday for your family? We have been thinking about it but after advice from our Cardiac Liason Nurse, we realise taking an overseas holiday at this time just isn't that simple. Living with a Congenital Heart Defect really does mean there is a lot more to consider & some things may have to be sacrificed for now.
February is Heart Month, a time to raise awareness of all things heart. Our journey started the day we became CHD parent's, which was the day we got his diagnosis. My faith had been rocked after having a miscarriage and now it was being tested again.
We decided to try again pretty soon after we lost Baby J at 11 weeks pregnant. Pregnancy after a loss can be very difficult and we just couldn't relax or let go. We decided to wait until our 20 wk scan before we got our hopes up at being able to keep this baby. Our 20 week scan provided us with information that would tip our world upside down in ways we couldn't even imagine.
I had thought if I really wanted to get married that I was going to have to be with someone who just didn’t get me, and really put aside the things I was hoping & praying for in a guy. I'm not talking about simple compromise, or trying to tick those 'boxes' , but genuinely not finding someone who I was passionately and madly in love with, that I couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life with.
It’s been a month since we lost our baby and I have realised a few things about grief and the effect it has had on us. If you have dealt with grief, pain or trauma then you may be able to relate. I don't claim to be an expert or even be able to articulate... Continue Reading →