Thursday was our ONE YEAR wedding anniversary and what a year its been, thrown together in this pandemic in a way we didn’t expect but we have survived. This week we thought we would be sharing pregnancy news with you because our scan was due this week but unfortunately 2 weeks ago, at 11 weeks pregnant, we suffered a miscarriage these past 2 weeks have been hard, & what looked like perfect timing is now heartbreaking timing.
I share this with you because this is real, me & Marvin are real, what you see is what you get & this is what we are going through. Not just the “Instagramable Life” I’ve had so many questions that may never be answered. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, you just don’t think this one will be the 1. Because of the pain & the shock, at times it’s felt like everything I had hoped & dreamt fell at my feet & broke into pieces. But I stand on a firm foundation (God). Our hopes & dreams have been shaken up, but I’m slowly picking those pieces up & working them out again with God’s help. Do we dare to hope & dream again?
I can’t tell you the pain we’ve experienced, if you’ve been through it, then you know. But I definitely won’t sugar coat this, it’s been very hard & very painful. But I do know that God is good & we will continue to pursue the plan He has for our lives. Trusting God is not just a flippant saying or even an easy thing to do, especially in times like this but it’s something we will continue to do.
Since this has happened to us, we have spoken to so many friends who have gone through it. So I hope by sharing and talking about it, it may help someone else.
I’m so grateful for my husband, his support & strength has been more than I could ask for. I’m looking forward to living the rest of my life by his side, supporting him to be all that he was created to be. Despite what’s happened, I am excited for our future, because we have each other & I hope I can be all that I need to be as his wife.