I wrote a thing! It’s not my usual, but the words started filling my mind the other day and have continued to drip through. So here it is ❤️ raw, honest & vulnerable

Where Are You, God?

I find myself asking this question on our journey
Surely it shouldn’t have happened to us
That our son is poorly

We’ve been faithful
We’ve tithed, We’ve served
So why is it so painful?

His heart is broken
But you created him
Your words were spoken

Your words create life
They spoke the world into existence
So why is our son going back under the knife?

Where are you, God?

Is that you in my tears?
That still small voice
Telling me to give you my fears

Is that you in the pain?
Giving me comfort
Keeping me from going insane

Is that you in the new friends
The community that understands
In that peace that transcends

Is that you, God, in the strength to fight another day?
In my flesh, I’m weak & tired
But yet here I am, facing whatever comes my way

Is that you God in that encouraging text?
Sent by those who are praying
Easing that tension I feel in my chest

Is that you God in the hands & minds of the surgical team?
In their giftings & talents
When they talk, I hope its all a bad dream

Your word tells me to seek your kingdom first
Then I need not worry about things
But I know that it still hurts

Your word tells me you are close to the brokenhearted
Well, oh my God, you must be closer than ever
As my world has become so distorted

Your word washes over me as I read
Or listen in a song or in prayer
My faith grows, even when it’s as small as a mustard seed

God, I know you are there,
I know you are working
So I will keep on trusting, keep on seeking

God, thank you for showing me that you are always there x